cinematic sunrise

2012-02-20T01:11:00.010+08:00

People fail to comprehend the word 'change' aint as simple as spelling it out.

There's just so much, too much, that i wanna say but no one to say it to.

2012-01-22T02:00:00.004+08:00

So its been a while since my last post, doesnt mean i'm a different person now that the anger has subsided. I find myself being ok with backsliding. Kindda weird even for coming from me.

Been thinking a lot lately, as usual i suppose. And i've figured everyone is just lying, even to themselves. Sometimes i guess people just put on these masks to cover those emotions. So used to it that they don't even recall the last time they took it off, so used to it they hate themselves.

But thats whats beautiful about life, cuz if we're lucky, someday somebody somewhere, will walk into our lives and remove that mask from our faces.

2011-12-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

Who says money isnt the root of all problems, who says it was never about the money. Its always, always, always about the money. I cant believe i had to resort to so many shit to deal with this. I didnt want to, but i never had a choice. You motherfucking cheapos forced me into this. I hate my life, i hate who i am, i hate the people i live with.

2011-12-20T17:28:00.003+08:00

That certain feeling u feel because of that certain someone. It really drives me nuts. Like fucking hell man. Whats the deal with me? I really have so much to do but just cuz i dont hear from you, all i feel like doing is wait and do absolutely nothing. And let me tell you. This slow and fruitless process is nothing but pain. Just feel like scream out loud. Although, i was quite happy you complained to me last night, its cute, you're cute when you get angry over these things. It made me smile. Hope you'll see sincerity in my heart. Sometimes i dont wanna text you back cuz im just afraid you'll find me annoying. Get back to me asap please, i miss talking to you, and i really wanna be with you jasmin

2011-12-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

Couple of days ago i told someone about my problems. Guess i just needed to spit it out. Yea i feel so fucked up inside. I cant believe im such a loser.. Allowing minor details to affect me. Like im a girl or something, pussy.. I really wish i could be immune to these things. I just wanna be numb. I just wanna scream out my problems. fuck myself silly seriously...

2011-12-07T23:44:00.003+08:00

What hurts the most? Lousy family, friends that drift and one-sided love. Yeap cant get better than this. It just feels like you're not appreciated and insignificant... All i want, all i ever wanted was to be a part of somebody's life. But no, people just use you and toss you aside, either that or they dont give a fuck. I thought by occupying myself with something new i could forget all these. Guess it just made all of it worse. Fuck i just wanna die sometimes. help

2011-11-28T00:33:00.003+08:00

When I was young, my dream was to grow up, seems legit? Yea the reason's simple. To never see my family ever again. They always say family is important. Cuz they need u to do their shitty work, they need you to vent their anger on. Well that's all I'm important for isnt it? I'm only still here cuz you fucking provide for me, I hate this. You all fucking despise me so much? Well don't worry the feeling's mutual, and I can't wait to get out of here. To you I'm a good for nothing worthless piece of shit huh? The black sheep of the family? Get your facts right. Fine I know. I'm done trying to set things right, I'm done being MrNiceGuy. Anyone who's reading this don't even try to judge me. You're not in my shoes, and you'll never understand what I feel.

2011-09-24T02:20:00.002+08:00

Today i just felt the most real fear ever. I'm not even sure if its true. Well, at least i once believed in it. For a moment i just felt consumed. Have you ever got the thought that you were gonna trade whatever you have and whatever you're gonna have, for an eternity of regret and pain. I just need someone to show me the way to overcome this mountain. Help me...

2011-09-08T23:54:00.004+08:00

I believe changes are for the better. Others may feel that you're no longer the same as before and they don't like it. But why should that bother you. You change for yourself, not them, so fuck them. True friends are those that accept & understand your change and stick by you no matter what.

2011-09-07T23:40:00.002+08:00

If you're left out, just tell yourself this; you dont need these people.

2011-09-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

Thinking a lot isn't wrong, its called being sensitive. Its also known as being rare since most of us dont think before we act.

2011-09-02T23:41:00.004+08:00

Lets just get this over with so i wont have to hang on to guilt

2011-09-02T00:06:00.003+08:00

Eerytime i tell myself, why should i be affected by all this foolish nonsense. No reason to be. So from now on, i should try being less sensitive to matters that are unrelated to me. Cuz why care for others, when others don't give a fuck's damned about you.

2011-08-21T14:41:00.001+08:00

I'm starting to think there's no such thing as a God. If there was, he'd kill me to save me from all this bullshit i have to deal with.

2011-08-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

I've learnt, nothing anyone says is entirely true. I used to be so naive, but now i see. They say forever, bullshit. Friends you make along the way, some you feel worthy of calling a brother. Some are worth keeping, some just pull you down, worst are those who tarnise the sanctity of brotherhood. Not that i'm directing this to any individual. But seriously you don't need to touch your hearts so deep down to know its true. Think this is drama and emo? Well no, its called growing up. It means you can no longer live in denial and be naive.

2011-08-14T16:10:00.003+08:00

I fucking swear, when i have money i will move out and never come back. Nobody's gonna look down on me. And most of all i dont have to put up with all these nonsensical bullshit. Other people can see me as something worthy, but why not you, my family? Fuck you all

2011-07-09T21:22:00.001+08:00

maybe its time to let go. spend my time on things more worthwhile instead. some paths you have to walk alone, paths like this one.

2011-07-07T00:58:00.001+08:00

i wished forgetting would be that easy, i wished you'd knew what i feel

2011-07-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

Guess you were right, guess you weren't right for me. Guess it was a moment of folly... But it had felt so real even being one-sided. Guess I was always on the sidelines never truely a part of anything. Fucking stupid me.

2011-07-02T01:19:00.000+08:00

anyone out there who cares? well of course not, who am i kidding haha

2011-06-29T23:49:00.001+08:00

Just fuck my family up seriously. Everytime i try to explain myself, they don't believe me. I've decided i should stop trying so hard. I give up

2011-06-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

At first i thought it was too good to be true, i guess i was right.. It has been one-sided all this time i suppose. Nothing more than a figment of my imagination. Fuck this shit.. And i thought there was something special going on. I'm just a naive dumbfuck retard.. Even now i still hope, hope for something impossible..

2011-06-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

You know girl? This blog used to be about I, Me, Myself until you stepped into my life. Not only have you brought me back to this blog, all the post are dedicated to you, yes YOU! Right now I'm just awaiting your text/call telling me that you're home so we can catch that movie together.

Sometimes i just think we're both from two different worlds. And you like funny/entertaining guys while i'm boring/quiet at most times. Many times i get jealous seeing you with other boys. Fucking sensitive i know... And everytime i think i just might not be good enough for you. Please don't take me for a freak for saying all this out. I just feel better pouring all this out not to anyone, but this blog. Day 6 More than just a prayer, a need.

2011-06-23T00:13:00.003+08:00

And baby you're the one thing on my mind and that won't ever change anytime. I realised that when i wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is you. Or rather, the thought of you was already there waiting for me to wake up to greet me. The second thing? I'd check my phone for your text. The third thing? I'd smile to myself looking at your text. And I dont think i can go smoothly through a day without hearing from you. You think this is too mushy? Yea i think so too, but this is what i truely feel... Thats why I blog it out. Cuz nobody ever comes here. Day 5 pray consistently.

2011-06-22T01:37:00.003+08:00

I just wanna be the guy that makes you happy when you're down, no questions asked. Cuz i believe in trust, and if you trust me enough, i'm sure you let me in on your secrets. Day4, keep the prayer alive

2011-06-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

Sorry for acting like a dick. I felt like the most stupid person in the world, and still feeling so. I wish things would have turned different. Fuck myself for overreacting at every little shit, I'm such a pussy. But i said all those words cuz i cared so much. Day 3 and I'm still gonna pray on

2011-06-20T00:52:00.002+08:00

As if my life isn't shitty enough. Fuck this crap that always happens to me. Nobody fucking cares what i do. All i want is to have a fucking normal & fucking happy life. Why the fuck is falling in love so difficult too?

2011-06-14T21:24:00.001+08:00

They say love is blind, well yes i admit. All i want is your love. All i want is to be blinded by you.

Pamela

2011-06-12T17:58:00.005+08:00

If you're reading this which I doubt you are, I just wanna let you know that even though we met for only 2 weeks or so, you are all I think about everyday every night. And when I'm not with you I just miss you so so fucking much. When I'm with you all I want is too see your face, hear your voice, feel your touch. Basically girl, you make me go crazy. So when you told me to take it slow, I will. Cuz you're worth every single bit of the wait. :) always waiting

2011-02-13T21:59:00.003+08:00

Where ever i go,
The skies remain the same
We used to feel so right,

But we lost it all,

How can you take this away from me,
When that shooting star that we saw,
Says you're wrong

2011-01-27T22:48:00.005+08:00

And now, my kin is one of them.

Why did you have to lie about it,

If you dared to do it.

I thought i was your brother, Fucker.

2011-01-03T01:29:00.002+08:00

Holy Shit, just realized i left my blog dead for weeks.

Holidays have been great/interesting so far

eg. found a fag job, quit the fag job, found a better job, celebrated christmas

Ain't having the nostalgic feeling of wanting to return to school though, good or bad thing?

Cheers to 2011, ParadeTheDay baby

this is my home, where my heart's anchored so deep

2010-11-14T16:49:00.003+08:00

Dear Gravity, you make me down to earth.

Things to do during holidays:

Get a job,

chores,

Swim,

play,

run,

get a chick (tentative),

play more.

2010-10-17T09:39:00.001+08:00

Its the final stretch of the race. I want all of us to make it. I want me to make it...

2010-10-02T02:13:00.001+08:00

Studying too much makes me feel nerd.

2010-09-25T23:19:00.006+08:00

Adults are selfish and insecure

They never stop to think what we really want

They say they understand us

But i'll say this, BULLSHIT!

I don't need this,

Not a single bit

2010-09-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'll do well..

2010-09-03T20:26:00.002+08:00

Guess i'm not what you were looking for,

Too bad

2010-08-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

Painkillers don't work all the time

2010-08-10T09:31:00.002+08:00

Look forward to tomorrow,

Cause what's left of today,

Will just be yesterday's f-edup memories.

2010-07-26T18:28:00.009+08:00

Skies are dark,

Monday blues... To top it off, school ends at 5. How lousy can your Monday get. Should've went to study with Iwan and the others today, damn. Tomorrow will be better, scoff, yea right

But i still see you clear.

2010-07-21T21:15:00.003+08:00

Think of you,

Life's tough/smooth, i don't know. Who's to judge. I'm feeling real mixed these few days, the feeling sucks. 3 more months to freedom, so close yet so far. Damn

Whenever you're not around.

2010-07-16T23:53:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling funny,

2010-07-15T17:07:00.002+08:00

I'm glad you are, cuz i know i am too :)

2010-07-11T22:27:00.003+08:00

This is my home,

I'm glad i was able to make it for soccer today, though we only played a short game. Tiring week ahead, lesson time till at least 4pm each day. Oh well life goes on, hoping to catch a movie this weekend

This is where i'm meant to be.

2010-07-01T16:58:00.005+08:00

I'm sorry,

I wished i had more reasonable/understanding parents. I thought things were going well for us, guess i was wrong, i'm sorry. FML

I can't be perfect.

2010-06-25T13:55:00.008+08:00

When i get older,

Yesterday night, my dad made us be in-charge of some household chores we are suppose to do since (according to him), mum was too old to do. There were 9 options, i picked 3 leaving the other 6 for my brother/sister to decide among themselves. My sis picked only 2, forcing my bro to take 4. Obviously, he was unhappy. She said she had work, she asked him to let me have the 4th chore. I said i had o'levels. She said it was no big deal, wt*? I know i'm not as smart as you are so i need more time to study. But what i wanna know is, when did you have the authority to push your responsibilities to us. For someone who scored so well in o'levels, i don't think that was a bright thing to do. I hate my home, sigh

I will be stronger.

I feel so useless/weak, f***

2010-06-23T02:05:00.006+08:00

I believe,

Back from church camp yesterday, slept through the night and day, woke up just now at 1am. I feel horrible inside out, faggot.

In the supernatural.

2010-06-16T14:19:00.009+08:00

The solar eclipse,

Holidays have been sort of great i guess? Went Sentosa on Saturday, played paintball on Sunday & shopping yesturday. Lol, wx almost bought a damn funny shirt, ''come on folks! I'm awesome!'' haha. Church camp this Friday. Gotta finish up some homework or i'll feel guilty

Fridge the sun.

everytime you come, i never want you to leave.

2010-06-11T15:49:00.002+08:00

Don't stop for a minute,

HELP lessons are finally over, thumbs up. Still, there are assignments to be completed. 2weeks break, gonna catch-up with some fun. Paintball on Sunday, haha awesome. Hitting the streets soon, ciao

Take it to the limit.

i've been a bad boy D:

2010-05-22T22:53:00.004+08:00

One day I'll be ready to go,

Friday was kindda awesome, mt lesson was hilarious. Spent the night at ecp, went home from there at 6pm. Fun? yea... Tired? Hell yea...

As expected, my prelim1 results sucks. It reflects so much on how much effort i've put in. I wanna work harder. Hopefully, i can keep out all distractions till after o'level subsides

The world behind my wall.

2010-05-15T22:46:00.004+08:00

Families,

I hate my sister. What have i done to her that makes her do this to me... I've got no phone, no psp, now i've got no freedom over the computer. When you ask me to keep mum, i oblidged, but you didn't think of that when you told dad huh? Some sister you are. Fail sibling

They're out to sabotage you.

pretty much, life sucks

2010-05-11T19:12:00.006+08:00

Memoirs of a yearning heart,

So busted, i'm sure i'll do badly for MYE. Guess i've gotta pull up my socks. I feel that i can let out a sigh of relief after this exam but, duh, i can't. I'm starting to miss many thing, without the exception of my phone

Never again to be re-lived.

buck up dude, it's all or nothing

2010-05-02T23:40:00.004+08:00

Re-align the soul,

Painted my room yesterday, my fingers are killin' me... Gonna get new furniture as well to make the room smaller for 2 person to study in, cuz Granny's moving in with us ^^ I wonder what'll happen to her dogs. Hey lets sleep in tmr, its a holiday, woohoo. I miss the convinience of a phone... Gonna hit the sack, ciao

Re-section your heart.

like i said, cheap trills

2010-04-27T17:48:00.003+08:00

We are young,

Argh, prelim's a pain in the ass. Screwed me up & stuff.
Kept thinking about stuff these few days:
1.Money
2.My phone
3.O'levels
4.June holidays
5.Tentative plans after O's
6.Certain people
7.My phone

Gotta make some Geography notes for my revision. MT papers on Thursday, gonna fail, cheers

We are strong.

2010-04-23T14:40:00.004+08:00

Pretending airplanes in the nightsky,

School's been hectic with all the homework, night studies & extra lessons. Whats more, prelim's next week... Coping well? I hope so, hah. Chemistry sucks, i need help. Dad took the psp, now what do i do for fun? 1st the phone, now the psp... Whats next, my life? Predictably possible. Gotta chiong studies

Like shooting stars.

the blissful ignorance of hurting souls verbally for cheap trills, pity

2010-04-10T20:16:00.004+08:00

Take nothing but photgraphs,

Back from geography field trip at Malaysia, Kota Tinggi. Everything was awesome~ trekking was awesome, food was awesome, hotel was awesome, beach was awesome! Missed the chance to go Fruit farm, aww. But had more time to shop, woot. Celebrated Jonathan's bday, cool. Kindda weird, i found out that i sleep-talk; "wanna take taxi?'' LOL. Trip was kindda short, 2D1N only. Would be more awesome if its extended. Will upload pictures some other day. Kota Tinggi FTW! Desaru rocks ttm

Leave nothing but footprints.

2010-04-05T15:33:00.003+08:00

Take to the streets,

Awesome, 1st day of experiential week was spent at sentosa. Made sand castles, cool. 50% of the reason i'm happy is cuz it didn't rain ^^ Guess my class made the biggest sand castle cuz we linked 3 structures together. Creative writing workshop at school tmr, wednesday & thursday. Hope i don't fall asleep

Play beautifully.

2010-04-02T02:08:00.005+08:00

Hey,

Blog's kindda rotting. Have been busy/lazy to post these few days. Reduced my font size. March was quite a month, had so many activities which includes the public performance which sucked cuz my seat sucked, my hair sucks too cuz the hairdresser sucks. Damn, phone is confiscated by dad for who knows how long. Experiencial week starts on monday, awesome. Still can't get over my phone, shit manz. Ciaoz

Soul Sister.

2010-03-16T22:35:00.015+08:00

Siloso Beach!

Weather at Sentosa wasn't the best today, but at least we reached there after the rain stopped ^^ Had fun, had laughs, had sand on my feet, body, eyes, mouth & in my ears. Ran into a rope supporting the volleyball net. Played volleyball, frisbee, touch rugby, catch fish (fail) & threw sand. Had dinner at skypark, celebrated WS's advanced birthday & Defu's birthday there (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!). Today was awesome

Homework-ing tmr? Guess so...

WX laoda~

This pic is 5Gb, took so long to upload. LOL

HIGH SLOPE! HIGH SLOPE!

Everyone go YMCA~

jailbirds

2010-03-16T00:27:00.006+08:00

CHECK IT OUT BABES,

Went to NYP today, not bad, school of design, not bad, food there, not bad. Ok the food totally sucks. Visited Paul at TTS hospital after that, glad to see him in Pjs n shorts LOL. Saw a bunch of letters from the kids they wrote to him, freak'in cute marnzxsz. Was totally Lmao-ing with a sick/coughing uncle beside me starring in awe of my laughter. Anw Get WILL Soon, HAHA!

Went to Novena square after that, looked around... Blah Blah, bought shades & totally want that awesome pair of jeans. 12am now, Sentosa in the morning with dudes, booyah~ Gonna get burnt

HE'S IN THE HOUSE TONIGHT!

Gratitudes for a second chance, cherish it i will. It won't be something to be forgotten overnight but i will prove myself worthy of this precious chance. Trust me.

its suppose to be teacher paul, but haha..

get will soon, lol!

2010-03-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

A life,

My mio is fixed! I can finally watch TV again! Woohoo~ Tmr is friday, cool, have 2.4km run, not cool... I have to pay so much for the geog field trip, so unprivileged ): Oh well, once in a lifetime trip, worth it I guess? English test tmr, I will not fall asleep!!!!

Of lies.

2010-03-02T22:05:00.003+08:00

I wished,

Best thing about weekdays is reaching home after school to watch TV :D Now the stupid Mio got problem i can't watch D: I dunno why pandas like to eat bamboo, even after its cooked it taste like crap srsly. I feel really sick right now u know? No. Truck-loads of problematic dilemmas in my mind. I need to stop falling alseep in class

These were imaginations.

Letting go of things are easy, not. How to make up for the things you've done

2010-02-28T20:24:00.004+08:00

I see your true colours,

Woke up on Saturday morning intending on going to play soccer but had a really bad cough & painful throat, sucks much :( Stayed home, had medicine & went back to sleep. TG i felt 1000000x better after I woke up, woohoo. Or else I wouldn't have been able to meet CHIOBU WANYI! Haven't seen her for some time alrdy. Talked about loads of stuff and walked around quite a lot too? Lol, overall it was awesome to be able to meet her. See you at the concert ^^

And that's why I hate you.

2010-02-25T20:50:00.004+08:00

Tell me again,

Today was horror, all the buses hate me. Missed the bus to cwp, missed the bus to school & (you guessed it) missed the bus back home. And just when things couldn't get a worse, MT lesson took a toll on me... And wow! Math teacher surprised me with a test... Geog teacher said I look emo.. Wt? Life couldn't be suckier than this. Was kindda listless throughout all the lessons. Thankfully BX and Mark helped out with the flag's pole or I will really cmi. Sports day tmr, "yeah"

why did I bother?

2010-02-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

Like a rose,

reached home kindda late ytd so didn't get the chance to post. Did my Chinese compo after fashion debate (awesome!), and I tell the truth okay? IT WAS TORTURE! PURE TORTURE! But thanks to the help of shy n hazel I managed to complete it in 2hours++.. Yea very long, I can see your jaw dropping... Don't think that it was that well-written, but still, made an effort ;D thumbs-up! PhelixFTW~

School today was ok as usual, got the o'level confirmation slip. & OMG I have to pay $300+ in "CASH" cuz I no giro, dang manzxs! School starts later tmr woohoo! Ciao

Trampled on the ground.

2010-02-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

Walk away,

Went to AMK today, played soccer and poker with the guys... Sweat like mad dog & stink like rubbish bin. Had cell after that, hmm got a couple of good names ^^ RICOLA~.. Played more poker later on & i = poker king, yeah manzxs

And never look back.

Bonds grow stronger when nurtured, lies

2010-02-16T19:44:00.003+08:00

Seeing,

CNY day3 went to MrTan's house to bainian. Some place at Kembangan, lol sounds like caveman language " kembangan ~" And holy cow his house is HUGE(!) Like, enormous and so nice, awesome... So many paintings on the walls of his house, almost all the rooms have one... Including the gym room which has an erotic painting LOL~ sexaye! Too bad he's gonna sell it.. So sad seh, he live there 3years only wth.

Went to Cwp to catch a movie with Pao & his clique. Tickets for Lightning Thief were sold out so we went to yishun's GV to watch instead. TG there were enough seats lol.

Overall CNY had been almost perfect... Spent time with friends & family. School tmr -.- suckish.. And I totally forget whether it's day3 or 8. Damn

Is believing.

2010-02-15T16:24:00.004+08:00

When I say jump,

Woohoo, am now at m'sia ^^ ahma made curry chicken!!!!!! No kidding seriously, her curry chicken is TO DIE FOR!!

Talked a lot about ourselves and it was kindda freakin' oddsome to find out I used to steal beer from uncle to drink when i was still some small kid... Lol?! And I cry when he dun wanna give me LOL. I really had no impression of those incidents.

Tried some red wine, naise.. Cousin is pro drinker, before going school drink one glass. Lmao~

Big family is fun, feels so different when with them. CNY \m/

You say how high.

2010-02-13T15:37:00.009+08:00

Its too late,

Its CNY eve and its boring... I'm at home the whole day with nothing constructive to do. Hope tmr comes soon, like in a blink of an eye... School was okay, had some kindda CNY concert. And wth i seriously needa complain, some freakin' person anyhow throw sweets hit my head while i was enjoying the performance(!)
Anw, KoK gave me hongbao ^^ She even say wanna treat us go WRS anniversary woohooooxzsxxsxzsxsz~~~ Gonna eat steamboat later, CIAO

To apologize.

maybe you guys don't feel it, but things don't seem the same anm.

2010-02-06T12:02:00.003+08:00

So don't worry,

This weekend suck man, zx, andre & benben are in taipei T.T can't go cuz of school... Wanna go buy my stuff but there ain't anyone to accompany me, the rest already bought theirs.. We'll see how. For now i'll just rot, P/S dad made a freak'in huge pot of maggie mee

Even if the sky is fall'in down.

You know what hurts the most? Not being stabbed in the heart... No.. What hurts most is that you're forgotten and left out by the people you used to firmly call brothers... i wish things would change for me...

2010-01-26T17:58:00.004+08:00

Get a life,

Sometimes it just seems so hard, you know you've done something wrong and you don't apologize. You regret it, they know it... but whats the point eh? Things just won't be the same, no going back. I've scarred their hearts.
Maybe you're just nothing of worth, never good with words, humour nor with people. Who wants to hang with someone of the sort? You envy the others when u see their webs, 'BFF, brothehood' they say to one another...
Used to be of the same league, but fell back because of a foolish, weak mistake. You just had to be so petty... Guess its too late for sorry-s now.
Depressed when you see 'em, u hope to reconcile with them... tighten the bonds once more, but they don't bother...

Now you're just a religious joke, nothing more.
Nothing... the word, yes that word...
You who used to be insignificant is now, nothing

If you don't have one.

2010-01-07T18:31:00.002+08:00

Peace,

1st week of school, not bad... Except for the fact that many of my friends are not there. Hais, hope to get over this year asap. Gonna work hard & slog my guts out manzszszxsxsxzxs! And walao, my chem teacher making us go online to post questions we dunno... Why cant we do it in school!!?? -.-
Hope to see my O'level buddies soon. Words cannot contemplate how much i miss them

Thee ignorance is thy sadness.

2010-01-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

Back in action,

Have been too lazy to post during this holiday... Going out with friends a lot. Had a crossover service at church last night and we stayed over, haha. The following afternoon, which is today afternoon ,we went to watch Sherlock Holmes... Nice show ;D

School starts on Monday, hais... & i'm still in the holiday mood. Won't be able to go out so often anymore, lol

End of transmission.

2009-12-16T20:38:00.006+08:00

Who say? We say we say,

Weetsxz just woke up not long ago after i came home from camp. Tiring manz, since we slept quite late on the last night cuz we playing Mafia.

Camp was imba, amazing and... ... HOT! Lol, my group was okay? I guess we did our best.

Had games at Pulau Ubin too, cool seh. Performance night was great, celebrated many people's b'day. As i said, was playing Mafia on the last night of camp and was totally half-sleeping for the last few games, lmao? Learned some things from the game too, think smart think fast.

Took some photos when camp broke and was kindda sad to say byebye D;
Am already looking forward to 2010 Uth Camp, haha

Are You Game?

Though i was sad we didn't fly high, I'm still glad to have someone to pray for me. He totally calmed me & suspended me on the concentration of what's truly important. Thanks Casper, Thanks God

sickness

2009-12-07T09:01:00.002+08:00

Wassup moffos,

Have been lazy to blog these few days cuz I've not been home a lot. Stayed over at friends' house or church most of the time. Slept over at church the day before and woke up with a headache, flu and cough -.- Feeling much better after taking Panadol Extra. Youth camp's on this coming Friday, can't wait. Hope my team's cooperative though

Its less than you deserve.

2009-12-02T23:33:00.007+08:00

Turn up the music ,

Slept over at ZX's house last night, Andre went too. Was on FB looking at girls, LOL. Then we keep 'Waaa~ .... Eh see this one, waaa~' & 'HOT' lmao!? Went to work today as usual, but went to church after that & played board games, haha. Played till evening and then we went home with TEA cell members. Tmr is my off day woohoo! Can go out + Can go out ;D

So its come to this.

live a life, for god

2009-11-30T19:56:00.004+08:00

Its been a while,

Yea, haven't been blogging for a few days cuz was busy helping out at children's camp on Friday & Saturday. It was fun ;D my team came in 3rd out of 4th, lol, so lousy... Played many games too. It wasn't an overnight camp so we went to Andre's house to sleepover. Talked a lot of nonsense on the bus going to his house. His elf avatar so cool seh, ninja. Played lan & pool before going back to his house to sleep

Had to work on Sunday manz, so damn pissed. Its a sabbath you know? At least it was in the afternoon, so i went to church in the morning 1st before heading off to work. Think i'm gonna stop work on the 10th cuz i dun wanna waste my holidays. Gonna get my pay real soon, cool

My Abba, My Father.

He really likes this new feeling, of not being tied down. He feel like He's finally settled, He know he's right becuz when he's with them, he doesn't need to be someone else

2009-11-24T21:46:00.002+08:00

Well hello! Is this thing on?

wuzzups yo'll worked today as usual... But haha, looking forward to my pay ;D Got a lodda' stuff imma gonna buy when i got the money, so yea. Anw, soccer tmr morning with ZX, teach me new thing! Can't wait for upcoming children's church camp on Friday and Saturday, lols. I'm gonna be there as a volunteer, cool ehh?

I'm only up when you're not down.

I'm sorry for being the way i am, and i apologize... However, about what I've done, i dont regret it.

2009-11-23T22:19:00.004+08:00

Raise your head,

Wasn't able to post yesterday cuz i was too tired, so imma gonna do it now.

Went to church and made our own elf avatar, cool. Headed to Bugis after that to shop as ZX need clothes for prom night on Monday which is today. Its like so last minute... Bought myself a pair of shoes at iluma ;D i like it manz! And ZX, Andre and me bought same T-shirts but different colour. Parted with Andre after that when we went home

Last dance, last kiss.

xxxx

2009-11-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

Drop the pretence,

Home from work, tired, so i'm not gonna go into any details. Going church tmr morning, gotta wake up early even though i got no work, argh...

But its ok, i like church. At least when i'm there, people acknowledge each other's existance, they don't wait till you're angry or bored before trying to talk to you

I don't care.

I sent out an SOS but they'll never see me

suck

2009-11-21T00:15:00.003+08:00

People are naturally selfish, they do what's beneficial for themselves only, can't be helped

Dissapointments are ignorance are parts & parcel of an insignificant life, get used to it

"I came to realise depression is when nothing matters…
and sadness is when everything matters."— Gloria Steinem

And now, nothing matters, sigh

set me free

2009-11-19T22:03:00.002+08:00

Get the show on the road,

Didn't wanna blog today but, oh heck who cares... Work today, was laughing a lot cuz boss and Gary were funny. Gonna go Marina square tmr to help out in setting the wagons and get used to the my NEW working environment, yes NEW, in big bold letters... Gary told me i would most probably be tansferred there to work. So far sia wtfish... Going out tmr night and have to work on Saturday, dang. Better not let me work on Sunday. Oh well, i was too last minute to inform them

Your karma is leaking.

I didn't know why, i just knew i had to... & i'm glad i did what i did. I call this a fantasy i'm addicted to, childish, yes. Can't help it can i? I want the reality, not just the dreams

finale

2009-11-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

I come in peace,

Nothing much to blog about cux nothing much happened today. Went to work and... oh ya good news ;D tmr can go Taka work! Means i can wake up late, woohoo. Comm'on bring on the cheers, i know you're happy for me, lmao random. Gonna make myself available this Saturday for Brother no matter what it takes, of course that doesn't include losing my job

My time has come.

come on strong

2009-11-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

Right back at you,

Nothing interesting today... Worked at office today, boring. Clar said that after this batch of stocks, we can go do some work, real work, PROMOTER work ;D ahaha.

Anw, BenBen should be in Australia now, damn sad. I couldn't see him off at the airport as flight time clashed with my work. Gonna miss that dude, nothing's gonna be the same without him. Hope he'll adapt well there and make friends so he won't be sian. Come back soon Bro

Memorial of Truth

kzz day

2009-11-16T00:18:00.004+08:00

Lets do this,

Holy crap, its 12.31am & theres work tmr!! Went to church today and played 'Who wants to be a Millionaire' ahaha. My team won, sweet, JP was damn pro. So many questions also know.

Met up with WX, Eugene & Clarence to go shopping. Bought a pair of berms at Bugis. And omg, iluma was damn cool. They have a shop with anime cosplay and everything, paradise. They have the 'so called' biggest lan gaming centre and it was huge... like 'wow'. But very ulu one, lol?

Ben, J&J and CHIOBU WANYI joined us when we went pooling. Had fun, gonna do this again soon. Real soon

Knees beat, Eyes heavy

keep me in your memory

sentosa

2009-11-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

Kick it up!

Wasn't able to post for a few days cux of my hectic work schedule, damn. Starting to get sian of the job already, so mafan.
Went to work yesterday & met friends after that to eat at AMK hub. Went to Sentosa today, lol. Had a hell of a time manz! Except that the rain ruined it for awhile. Played volleyball, winner gets to imagine that you win pretty girls, lmao? The air was freakin' cold and it a good time to sleep ;D Went to Carl's Jr. for dinner, so full... Slacked at skypark & went home. Work continues on Monday, shit. Too bad, no money gotta work for it

Just won't work on me

takashimaya

2009-11-10T23:29:00.002+08:00

From across the bar,

Went to work today & was late when i meet Clar, lol. During work the uncle keep complain this complain that, ask us do properly or not he will be the one who kena scolding ~.~ Gary gave us 2 tops and a damn baggy long pants, haha, he say scared when we work not enough plain shirts to wear. So kind sia. Did some tagging before going to Takashimaya to setup some of the wagons. So its like i'm gonna work at Taka square, its a big open space in the mall & i think its a bazaar. If it doesn't last long or i don't like working there i maybe find other work bah. Went to find WX after that, ate dinner tgt and waited for him to knock off

End it with a bang.

ubi tech park

2009-11-09T23:44:00.005+08:00

Pronounce h.e.l.l.o,

Woke up early in the morning to prepare for work, sigh... so early. 7am at cwp leh, take away my sleep and suck away my lifeforce, lol.

Met Clar & trained to AMK then took bus22 to workplace. We go off the 1st 4-5 stops realising we were wrong. Took the next bus & the indian bus-driver & another old man was very kind, tell us where to alight. Reached the place, found the place. Didn't go TAKA promote today as it starts on Wednesday. We were in the office sticking bar code labels and price tags, BORING. Was dropped off at city hall after work & couldn't find the toilet there == weak

Singing to the mirror

work tmr

2009-11-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

Comm'on everybody,

Went to church today. Played water bomb after service & had lunch before playing sepak takraw, cool, new sport ;D Went to lan after that and was lol-ing all the way. Damn funny man, keep dying. Gonna start work tmr le, so might not be blogging so often. When i get my pay i'm gonna buy so many things

As i wait.

SD'H

2009-11-07T20:32:00.003+08:00

Check it out!

Was suppose to go to Clar's house in the mornin' to collect my IC. 6am, siao... Too tired so didn't go. Went to School D' Hospitality's seminar just now in the afternoon... boring. My dad damn irritating, everything also got comment... so paiseh. Anyway, i think SD'H isn't the right choice for me now. They only teach you skills to help you to prepare for the working world, no studying required, lol? Guess i'm gonna give up the idea of studying there. Didn't go lan with the others cux many of em' never go

Fade to Black.

GOT MY JOB

2009-11-06T22:58:00.004+08:00

Ready? Cheers!

Got a job at Taka Square, as a promoter i think? Thats what Clarence said. Work starts on Monday, sweet.
Was suppose to go Orchard today to look for a job but Clar told me his brother's friend had a job for us, saved the trip ;D Went to play pool & lan with ZX & YL instead. Had a ball of a time, lols. Gonna go apply for a bank card in the morning then go to School D' Hospitality's seminar in the afternoon... Damn sian. But i think it'll help. Hope it ends on time then i can join the others for lan

Let me hear you scream.

2009-11-05T22:22:00.002+08:00

Howdy partners,

Went to play soccer with ZX today morning and it rained! Spoiler sia the weather... Anyway, didn't go & look for job with Clarence *sorry* so gonna go tmr. Heard from some friends (including CHIOBU WANYI) that Orchard have more chance, so decided to go there. Hope we can find a decent job so i won't have to stay home & rot while my Dad diaos me

Last farewell.

pooling

2009-11-04T23:37:00.003+08:00

Hola Amigos,

Woke up this morning and read my book, can't use computer cux dad's at home... ... Waited for ZX to finish his exams then went to lan tgt, lose till pants drop T.T Jerene called, ask me go pool (CHIOBU WANYI GOT GO!) In the end, wait for them so long. Played with the guys until 11pm then have to go home or else too late will kena scold. Didn't get to see ChioBu Wanyi, sian. Nvm theres always another time, lol. Soccer tmr morning with ZX

Ciao

i've come to realise whats real and whats not, who's a friend and who's not...

need-job addiction

2009-11-03T19:15:00.003+08:00

Whats cook'in?

Went Dhoby ghaut today for job-training with Clarence, actually he only went to receive his pay. Overall it was ok, and i can start work when they call. But its not on a regular basis, they only have work when there's a banquet ands its not like everyone celebrates everyday. I' m still in search of a permenent job for the holidays, sigh... Its taking too long. Most of 'em already have a job

Sing slowly.

we promised to do this together, but you went ahead without me... Forgotten? think not, just insignificant...

hate

2009-11-02T13:45:00.004+08:00

Dad: So, what are you planning to do for the holidays?

Son: Its the holidays, what do you expect me to do?

Dad: I'm expecting you to not be in front of the computer all day.

Son: I'm applying for a job over the holidays.

Dad: Alright, so? What if you don't get your job.

Son: I'll look for another one.

Dad: So what are you gonna do in the period of time when you're not working?

Son: *silence*

Dad: I mean, you gotta have a plan am i right?
If planA fails you've got planB or C to back you up, no?

Son: Yes.

Dad: Tell you what, since you've got nothing on your mind,
you're gonna treat holiday as school days

Son: Huh?

Dad: No computer for weekdays, only weekends.

Son: What the? But its the holidays

Dad: Until you have a plan you're just gonna rot in front of that screen

Son: *whispers* holidays are suppose to be relaxing, dammit

Dad: So until you have a plan, this is gonna be the way.
I want an answer by tommorow morning

Son: *whispers* great, now i need to reply him? zzz

what the hell, i'm already bored stiff at home, now this? You just don't want me wasting your money on electricity bills wrong? Schools out old man, now u wanna throw me to jail? dammit i hate this house

boring

2009-11-02T12:21:00.006+08:00

wassup y'all,

Forgot to blog yesterday so i'm blogging for 2 days now, lol. Did'nt do much yesterday though, stayed home and was infront of the computer the whole day, no life i know. Wanted to go pool with the guys but had to stay home for dinner, after which i went to ZX's house help him with some SS seq questions. Hope he did well ;D Guess i'm gonna stay home today unless friends jio me out.

Holiday's started only for a while and i'm bored stiff, i seriously need a job to keep myself occupied or i'll die of boredom. Now's a good time to read my book

The way, the truth, the light

2009-11-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

Woot, no place like home,

Chalet was a blast! Had so much fun. Too lazy to go into the details though, lol.

Second day was the best i guess, went to play pool & then we made farting noises in the room when we got back, Lmao, damn funny. Had a simple BBQ which was almost ruined by the shitty weather, left so much food never eat! At least my prawns all eat finish ;D And had an advanced birthday celebration for Jerene.Gonna go lie on my bed i missed for 2 nights

P/S all the best for KS&J, lol

Yearning of thy heart

2009-10-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

Sup Hommies,

Went ShengSiong just now to buy stuff for chalet & finished peeling the prawns for chalet's bbq ;D Thats right, chalet's tmr! Party in the day, Party in the night! Lols. Well O'level maths paper2 was kindda difficult, shit. Got a few i didnt know how to do. Anyway, its all over. Oh yea, Andy said there might be a job available at a cafe in his school, SMU, cool. Hope i can go... Gonna go pack my bag for tmr.

We'll bring the house down

Its funny, suprised's a better word i guess... why you were forgotten but came back to my dreams again that night. We were distant, but somehow tempting me to draw close to you. Then again, its just dream, & it'll fade, just like how u did

exams

2009-10-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

Qué arriba,

Had O'level maths exam today, woot. Did relatively okay~ But some of the questions i dunno/forgot... Lol nvm, gonna go study soon, paper2's tmr. Chalet's in 2 days time! Can't wait. All the best tmr amigos!

Raise the roof y'all!